Hosanna Restoration Church

We sing the song, “I Can Only Imagine,” but the truth is, I cannot imagine. In fact I have never gone beyond a tiny thought about actually seeing God. Of course I have thought about when we will all see Him in heaven, but even that I have not considered all that much. I have been pretty much caught up in getting to know Him here and experiencing His presence now in this life time.

So today I am reading this and I am suddenly arrested by the thought of seeing God. Even now, as I attempt to put it in words, I have a hard time coming up with any. I think of Moses, who glowed in the dark and I guess in the light as well for that matter, after just being close and having God’s glory pass by him. John fell down as dead and Isaiah said woe is me. Then there was Jacob who wrestled with God and got his blessing, surely God had to be playing with him. It really is something that is suddenly on my mind.

The fact that it shakes me so, makes me wonder if I am too content standing in amazement at small glimpses and stopping short of what God wants of me. Would seeing God in greater measure bring about changes that I am not willing to make?

This whole idea leaves me with a wide range of emotions. I think I want everything that God wants which gives me a good feeling of anticipation. But then there are the feelings of fear, dread, and over all anxiety that leave me shaking my head.

The Lord reminded me that when I first came to know Him, I never considered what changes a relationship with Him might produce. I just followed and did not see any of the changes as a great sacrifice. Of course looking back I can see that some pretty amazing things took place. Many of them were things that I wanted no part of until I met Him.

Once I met Him it seemed that nothing else really mattered. I can relate a bit to Paul saying that it was all dung compared to the privilege of knowing God. So when I think of that, I wonder why this thought now brings up such feelings.

No man or woman can see God and live, so no doubt there are still some things that would drop off like flies and die with such an encounter. But everything that has died up to this point has been good to let go of, so from that stand point it would be great! Right?

Still, seeing God is a scary thought right now. Seeing Him after I actually die sounds great, but I just can’t imagine seeing Him before that day comes. So I ask myself; do I want to see God? Am I prepared for what this meeting might produce? I am sure I do not know, but God does! To be honest, just the thought of it has made me very aware of areas that I need to work on.

No doubt some of you have pondered this much already, but I am just putting this out there in hopes that it stirs us all up into a desire for a greater revelation of His glory.